Friday, June 28, 2013

Empty Room, Empty Heart

I’ve spent a lot of time in my classroom the last few weeks packing up what has been my life for the last two years. It’s been a very melancholy experience and while I know I have bigger and better things to look forward to, it’s sad to say goodbye to all the work, memories, and learning that these four walls have witnessed during the last two years.

The mere fact that I’ve managed to fit my teaching career (thus far) into about 25 boxes and that everything that I am as a teacher fits into a 5x8 storage unit is unnerving. It makes me sad to leave.

I’m trying to look on the bright side, though. I will spend the summer traveling in Europe and a bit domestically and then return to a new classroom, school district and new set of opportunities in August. I can only hope that this new beginning takes me to where I’m supposed to end up.

Wish me luck on my new journey!

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Thursday, June 27, 2013


Change is challenging. It’s stubborn and comes unexpectedly. It breaks your heart and then expects you to pick up the pieces and continue on, as if nothing happened. It is life altering.

I have always considered myself to be someone who handles change effectively, even under the direst of circumstances. This theory was tested recently.

My latest bought of change came back in March when I was notified by my school district that I was not being invited back in the fall. I was a mess of emotions, to say the least. I was upset and angry. I was confused. I was depressed and I felt numb to everything and everyone.

Rather than try to fight for the job and draw the whole mess out any further, I did my career a favor and resigned on my own accord, effective at the end of the school year. (As much as I would have liked to up and quit upon notice from the district, I wanted to finish the year for my students. I also couldn’t risk the district trying to suspend my credential for breaking my contract early and jeopardizing a new job in the fall.)

For reasons that are still unbeknownst to me (as I was not tenured and the district had no obligation to let me know why I wasn’t being invited back), I had to say goodbye to the classroom that I’ve devoted so much of my life and effort to for the past two years and to the district that had been my workplace for the last five and a half years.

During the course of this whole ordeal, my first teaching blog, Kinders First, got pushed to the backburner. And I honestly had no motivation to blog, knowing I had no job to come back to in September.

I started looking for jobs immediately once I received the notice from the school district, hoping to secure a position with another district for next year before this school year was even over. There were not many job openings in my area and I couldn’t risk moving away when I am in the process of finishing my masters degree at the local university.

Fifty applications, two interviews, and two job offers later (along with a ton of self-doubt in between), I can say that I will have a job as a special education teacher again in the fall. I was blessed to interview and be offered a job with a district that is even closer to my home than my current job.

I will move from teaching kindergarten to teaching a 2nd/3rd grade combination SDC class. I am incredibly excited to get a combination class and to have the opportunity to teach an older group of students. (Thus, the inspiration for my new blog...)

In light of recent events in my career, I figured a change in scenery and blogs would do me some good. Besides, my other blog is no longer applicable to my current grade level!

So, welcome back, if you were readers of my previous blog and welcome all newcomers! I hope to share some thoughtful insights as I begin my third year as a new teacher. This should definitely be interesting…